dun noe y horr,,,everytime i drink mocha will go sot sot derhhx,,today i drink liaoo straight away go sot,,got bigggg effect on mee,,lol,,shout scream etc etc,-.-,,done permeanant dmg on me liaoox hahax,,jkjk,,actually is whether i wan to do it or not larrhx,,coz i have a choice in life mahhx,,i wan it to be a horrible one den it will be a horrible one,,den if i wan it to be a nice n lovely one it can happen,,coz its all abt the choice i make in life,,its just too bad i realize this onli now,,last time i tot tt i was born n brought to the world n just get wad i get n lose wad i lost without even doin anything,,meaning it just comes to me n i get it without makin any changes to it,,after experiencing many changes n regrets in life i finally realized tt i DO have wad it takes to make my life a better one,,i cant be blaming ppl for my actions n choices i did which made me regret,,many parts of my life were influenced by my frens,,i wld always try to fit in wif them,,if i cant i wld just back off,,coz i noe tt those things they do r just not...wad i wld do if i was myself,,if they make fun of me n another guy i wld just smile or maybe ignore them,,i just duno how to react when this kind of things happen,,if i realli do like tt guy i wld smile or ignore,,if i dun i wld oso do the same,,so there is completely no telling whether i like tt guy or not,,im a gal hu cant control my reaction,,especially laughter,,after many yrs,my frens,family,relatives all realli made me a happi gal,,they made me hu i am today,,without them i wld be a spoiled brat without having any feelings towards anyone n treat them as if they r..nths?i can tell u tt i am still not realli perfect in my attitude yet,,but im learning though,,n i realli hope tt maybe,,just maybe,,i can make my dying dreams come true,,

todae farhan bdae worrxx,,n guess wad,,siti gave him a nice metal piece thing which writes farhan's name on one side n siti's name on the other side,,hahaxx,,veri nice lorr,,so romantic,,hahax,,tt time when i open n see wad was inside tt box which contains the metal piece, all the gals all crowd around me den when open liao den we all "waaaaaa..." hahaxx,,den after tt go put bak into farhan's bag n wait for him to open his bag n see the gift siti has gave him,,lol,,siti even say she polish it siaa,,omg shes so devoted to him,,haha,,but shldnt it be the other way round? o.O,,actually both party must be devoted to each other de lar,,siti wait n wait until last period of home econ lesson when efan take out the box frm farhan's bag den tt farhan realize-.-,,den she so happi until she toktoktoktok n kip on saying farhan finally opened the bag wif a smile on her face,,den she kips on callin me mummy o.o,,she sot le lar,,hahax,,tink is becoz she too excited liao,,lolx,,when siti's bdae come ler i wonder wad farhan will get for her,,lol,,they 2 r such a cute "couple"

todae again nth much happen larhhx,,just went to church n do some stuff,,den after the whole church thing den go great world city go celebrate my cousin's bdae,,den eat ice-cream n all those stuff,,den after tt go bak church again den pray pray play play do some debate on some religions like some ppl act as buddhist n some act like christians n all those stuff larhhx,,quite boring la budden when they act tt time veri funi,,so yeazz,,,nth much realli happened lolx,,its a sunday,,wad do u expect? o.O,,

todae oso nth happen de larrhx,,go make sentence wif the police for 10mins or so den go home liao,,still have to wait for 1week or so den can now whether they wan giv bak the phone or not,,haizz,,,anyway,,after tt i went to visit my grandma,,she got bak prob den now staying in some nursing home or somethin,,budden onli temporarily larhxx,,later shift to my father de sis home stay lerhxx,,when we reach there lerhx den the nurse tell us tt my grandma dun wanna walk,,hahax,,say she onli wan to stay on the bed,,lol,,den my father go force her to go do some walking,,den she listen to him larhxx,,hahax,,of course he didnt force her like pulling her or anything larhxx,,just tok tok n nag nag until she agree to walk lor,,haha,,they both tok in cantonese i still can understand,,hahax,,after seeing my grandma my heart suddenly feel warmer,,duno y,,o.O,,den later when we left the place ler den went to buy some cha siew bao in some nearby stall,,hahax,,den after tt go take the car for some car wash,,hahax,,long time never sit in a car n see it get washed sia,,u noe how long le marhhxx?it has been more den 10 yrs liaoxx,,after my father sold off the car den onli 10 yrs later which is today den can sit on car again n see the car get washed,,haha,,u all must be tinking "u not first time see the car wash wad,,no nid act until like tt",,lol,,budden its been 10yrs >.<,,cannot resist larhxx,,hahax

now again come bak frm NPCC liaoox,,,i tot today will practice the NDP marching thing siaax,,den actually onli go polish up our drills,,hahax,,now one of my badge just have probs pinning on my uni,,-.-,,den when i try to help xin yi put on the badge,,the badge just dun wan to go thru her shirt la,,den i wan help siti oso cannot,,try n try until giv up-.-,,the badges just dun like me,,hahax,,maybe becoz they scared i will go sot den go break them into pieces,,ok im bein lame-.-,,tmr goin to ang mo kio police station go make statement to get bak my phone -.-,,veri sad shan cnanot make it,,alot of my other frenz oso cannot make it larhhx,,onli hy can worrxx,,somemore cannot postpone the time liaooxx,,,haixxxx,,nvm nvm,,haha,,tmr shan got tournament worr,,jia you arr netball team!!hahax,, 9.47pm 21 july 06

todae the sci test was still okok bahx,,ok the calculation part i tink i can make funeral down there,,the MCQ some i duno den anyhow choose one ans derhhx xD,,haizz,,,today malay lesson si bei sianx lorr,,first thing enter the room den the teacher call us "DIAM" liao-.-,,is like we owe him money like tt,,so fierce for duno wad reason,,den somemore edmund kana by him siaxx,,hahax,,go call him gal,,LOL,,den tt jin hui go block the way horrrr,,ying shan "AHEM" him he never move,,i "AHEM" him he oso never move,,he just too bz tokin lorr,,he wan tok no nid tok at the door wad-.-,,ppl still wan walk de siaa,,den somemore he got the wrong idea lorr,,he tinks tt becoz i vice-chair he suppose to be afraid of me,,pls lorr,,i vice-chair so wad,,im still a normal ordinary gal,,just like every other gals in the world,,well in the end i just pushed him aside larhhx,,so can go in liaoox,,den after mt period over,,meiqi go give us some chocolate to eat siaaxx,,n for ur info,,everytime i eat chocolate i will go siao siao derhhx,,hahax,,den during recess i drank mocha which is even worse,,mocha more effect den chocolate,,hahax,,so for half an hour or so i was toking abt things which didnt make any sense or do things which a NORMAL human bein wun even do,,hahax,,wad can i say,,im just a gal 5.37pm 20july06

now come bak frm NPCC liao...veri tired wor. feet all sore sore derhhs,,today march until can see lawrence perspire until duno wad,,like waterfall falling frm his head siaa,,hahAx,,now still got history project still haven do finish siaa,,still have to find info outside de txbk. budden not so bad ba coz the thing im searching for is quite interesting ba..abt the atomic bomb n' stuff,,budden if we all do a gd job den got benefit for us mahx,,get gd CA marks,,zZz now my connection oso not veri gd worxx.-.-everytime dc den connect again den dc den connect again..veri irritating,,tink im gonna die of boredom,,today horx the bawani go ask us tke our money out tt time i tot she gonna rob us siaa,,hahAx,,budden in the end oso do nth derhx,,onli go shade the coin n find somethin abt the coin de features lorr,,den tt jimmy tan everytime never come derhhx,,den the whole class kana scolded coz we neber go on9 go see whether got assignment,,tt si chairman oso never do anything derrhx,,onli sit down go toktok wif his dear frenz,,den i so suay lor,,mr james say finish wad he had to say liaox den he go ask me wad he said just now when i was not paying attention-.-. luckily i managed to ans larhx,,den today during assembly veri funi lorr,,got this musical performance or somethin den got someone name shan in the play siaa,,somemore got guy go play guitar for her f3,,so romantic worrx,,haHAx.tink i better go study liaox,,later tmr i fail the science test-.-